Slogging Through a Book

Hard to read

A course in Spiritual Direction, which is my scholarly pursuit at this time, is leading me to read a new and interesting line of books. I am meeting on those pages scholars and thinkers I have never been exposed to before and for the most part it is challenging and expanding my thinking.

That said this book I have just finished was a two month slog, through only 175 pages.

A little explanation perhaps of the course, may help your understanding.  In this course we are required to read but the number of books has some great leeway for each of the assignments over the year.  The focus is not so much on regurgitating the learning as it is on reflecting about the journey the reading has taken us on.  A new and wonderful concept for me in academia, which I have finally begun to relax in.

For this particular segment, the books I wanted to read from the book list were not available so I took one which was not a first choice.  While I found gems in it, there were pages I had to read, read again and then read again.  Even then I often could not understand what was being said.  I sometimes thought the book might have given a list of prerequisite readings so the train of thought and references could be better understood.  I also wondered if the writer was so enamored with her own thoughts that she only wanted a showcase for them rather than a place where others could learn.  Her poems reminded me of a saying I heard once: “They are so spiritually minded, they are of no earthly good.”

In short it was horrible but then perhaps it was me.  Maybe my mind is just not in the right space to receive what was written.  Maybe my lack of concentration is something I need to address and find solutions for.  Perhaps my expectations of the book based on it’s title were different than what it really was…or maybe it was just a really poorly written book and I should stop beating myself up.

As I read the assignment I actually have no clue how to apply what I read to the questions asked.  I am baffled about how to finish the work.

Wish me luck as I try to make sense of this assignment.

Note about the image: When I googled “hard to read” it never occurred to me there would be so many images.  Thanks to Invisible Creature’s T-shirt for this one.  


About Peggy Guiler

You just never know what show up on my blog. As the name implies it is about the stuff of life just like Spilt Milk. Everyday events spark thought and contemplation. Special events in the community, the country or the world may strike a cord and get me talking. Sometimes it's about people in my life or circumstances, sometimes about my garden, sometimes about a book or a political issue. Always it's about something I am passionate about. In my business, River of Hope Enterprises (, I work as an "Certified Coach" (International Coach Federation), a trainer, consultant and speaker. and as a spiritual director. I also drive a school bus to keep the wolf from the door while I build my business. I love the kids on the bus (most of the time). My family is grown and I have three grandkids who thrill my heart but I don't get to see any of them very often. Circumstances of life have made "family" difficult. My son died by suicide at age 16 in 2000 and the strain on our family relationships since has been huge. Mental health is a field where I worked for almost 22 years and where I still do some consulting and training. That combined with my own battle with depression and my son's death weave together to form some of my greatest soap box items: suicide intervention, suicide bereavement and peer support in mental health are right on the top of my list. Social justice is an underlying passion. Keeping the wolf from the door as a single parent was full-time work and my career path as a journalists was augmented with cleaning contracts, cooking, retail clerk, and bartending. I have known hard work and am grateful for the experience and perspective it has given me. A firmly grounded faith and a passion for learning has now taken me toward a new field as a Spiritual Director and I am soon adding to that a license to marry people. As I move toward retirement I am very aware that I have to keep working so I chose to do things which will meet my modest financial needs and also my love of supporting people in their life journey. Woven into all of this is my love of writing. Trained as a Journalist, and having worked in the field as a freelance news writer for many years, I have a great love for writing. This blog is a new beginning for me. As I hone my skills and begin to form a daily discipline of writing I hope it will lead to more writing in the future.
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