Deep Rest

deep restI had some mixed thoughts when I found this on Facebook yesterday.  The mental health circles I have traveled in for the past 20 years actually had a hard time getting depression recognized as a mental health issue.  Often those who lived with depression were, and still are, seen as being lazy and told that they would be fine if they would just “pull up their socks”.

This definition jumped out at me as a bit of an explanation of the weight we who live with depression carry.  It’s not so much about our situations as it is about how we fit into this life.  I believe people who have depression are very sensitive to the things and people around them and because of that sensitivity they have a great deal of difficulty figuring out how to make themselves fit in the world.

Today as I practiced silence in this wonderful restful place I kept slipping into sleep.  On a day I had hoped to do lots of reading and mediating I found myself in “deep rest”.  My first response was to beat myself up about it.  How could I be so wasteful of my time?  How could I not embrace the opportunity to seek the face of God and spend time in their presence?

I could not because today, as most days of my life I was depressed and unlike the rest of my life, today I had permission to fall into deep rest and perhaps allow some of the healing which comes with sleep begin to permeate my soul.  Who is to say that I did not meet with my Creator today?  Perhaps it is in our deep sleep and deep rest that we feel the presence of the Holy One most.

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About Peggy Guiler

You just never know what show up on my blog. As the name implies it is about the stuff of life just like Spilt Milk. Everyday events spark thought and contemplation. Special events in the community, the country or the world may strike a cord and get me talking. Sometimes it's about people in my life or circumstances, sometimes about my garden, sometimes about a book or a political issue. Always it's about something I am passionate about. In my business, River of Hope Enterprises, I work as an "Associate Certified Coach" (International Coach Federation), a trainer, consultant and speaker. and soon to be, spiritual director. I also drive a school bus to keep the wolf from the door while I build my business. I love the kids on the bus (most of the time). My family is grown and I have three grandkids who thrill my heart but I don't get to see any of them very often. Circumstances of life have made "family" difficult. My son died by suicide at age 16 in 2000 and the strain on our family relationships since has been huge. Mental health is a field where I worked for almost 20 years and where I still do some consulting and training. That combined with my own battle with depression and my son's death weave together to form some of my greatest soap box items: suicide intervention, suicide bereavement and peer support in mental health are right on the top of my list. Social justice is an underlying passion. Keeping the wolf from the door as a single parent was full-time work and my career path as a journalists was augmented with cleaning contracts, cooking, retail clerk, and bartending. I have known hard work and am grateful for the experience and perspective it has given me. My own passion for learning has now taken me toward a new field as a Spiritual Director. I am studying with the Ontario Jubilee Program. This new field I believe puts all my talents with people into one place which and may​ become something I can continue into retirement. Supporting people is what I do best. Woven into all of this is my love of writing. Trained as a Journalist, and having worked in the field as a freelance news writer for many years, I have a great love for writing. This blog is a new beginning for me. As I hone my skills and begin to form a daily discipline of writing I hope it will lead to more writing in the future.
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One Response to Deep Rest

  1. I think your maker would not want someone made in his image to be depressed. I think taking as much time as you need to rest and rejuvenate is what He would choose for you. Don’t feel guilty for making improvements to your wellbeing. Take care.

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