Opportunities Take Strange Turns – Singing on the Train

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Much of the last year has been spent getting that little piece of paper in the top right of this picture,  a license as an officiant in the Province of Ontario.  It is something I have wanted for a long time and someone I love who wanted me to marry her in June was my incentive.

Oh, how things turn.  The day after I get the license I find out her plans have changed, and she no longer needs me to do her wedding.  Books in hand for making plans for her day I have a choice.  The old me would throw up my hands in defeat and wonder why I bothered but this new me looks to the other opportunities which may open for me.

It used to not take much to throw me into a tail spin of depression and self depreciation but now it’s not so easy to go down that road.  A change like this I would have taken personally, and I would have been upset for weeks but I can’t do that any more.  I’ve learned a great deal about what is my” stuff” and what is someone else’s.  While the lesson keeps repeating I’m beginning to really get it.

This journey toward emotional and spiritual health has been multifaceted but there are two big pieces.  The first has been learning about living in the moment and the other is about forgiveness.  Add a few drops of essential oils and I feel like a new person.

The living in the moment part began when I was handed a copy of a book by Eckhart Tolle.    I tried to read the first chapter and literally tossed the book across the room.  I couldn’t get my head around the concept.  It made me angry and he and Oprah were dismissed as fools.  A few years later when I began the Spiritual Direction course I found a book by Thích Nhất Hạnh a modern Buddhist teacher who was teaching the same concept but managed to put it in a way that was understandable to me.  I began to get it and from then on it has been part of my quest to understand how to let things go in the moment, to examine them in the moment and to respond appropriately in the moment.  I’m not there yet and it takes work, but it is becoming easier.

The act of forgiveness is very much tied to this idea of living in the moment.  Reacting is being unforgiving.  Holding grudges and feelings of resentment is certainly not living in the moment.  In fact, those feelings tie us to the past with deadly chords and hold us from the good the future might hold.  My recent journey through A Course in Miracles has led me to a deeper understanding of forgiveness and the love it allows me to extend is a gift I now cherish.  It is the best thing I can offer to anyone.  It is the best things I can offer myself.  While it is not always easy it is always necessary.

This living in the moment and learning to let things go with love has helped me to better understand the words of my favourite modern mystic, Etty Hillesum.   This Polish Jew who helped so many of her fellow Jews through the horror of the holocaust wrote her last words on a postcard thrown from the train which took her to her death.  She said, “We left the camp singing.”

It is my goal to “leave the camp singing” not matter what curve life and circumstance throws at me.

Looking forward to where these books and this certificate take me even it is just to know the journey has lead me to this new state of mind.

If you know someone who needs an offiant give them my number.  🙂 (519-718-4512)

About Peggy Guiler

You just never know what show up on my blog. As the name implies it is about the stuff of life just like Spilt Milk. Everyday events spark thought and contemplation. Special events in the community, the country or the world may strike a cord and get me talking. Sometimes it's about people in my life or circumstances, sometimes about my garden, sometimes about a book or a political issue. Always it's about something I am passionate about. In my business, River of Hope Enterprises (www.riverofhopeenterprises.com), I work as an "Certified Coach" (International Coach Federation), a trainer, consultant and speaker. and as a spiritual director. I also drive a school bus to keep the wolf from the door while I build my business. I love the kids on the bus (most of the time). My family is grown and I have three grandkids who thrill my heart but I don't get to see any of them very often. Circumstances of life have made "family" difficult. My son died by suicide at age 16 in 2000 and the strain on our family relationships since has been huge. Mental health is a field where I worked for almost 22 years and where I still do some consulting and training. That combined with my own battle with depression and my son's death weave together to form some of my greatest soap box items: suicide intervention, suicide bereavement and peer support in mental health are right on the top of my list. Social justice is an underlying passion. Keeping the wolf from the door as a single parent was full-time work and my career path as a journalists was augmented with cleaning contracts, cooking, retail clerk, and bartending. I have known hard work and am grateful for the experience and perspective it has given me. A firmly grounded faith and a passion for learning has now taken me toward a new field as a Spiritual Director and I am soon adding to that a license to marry people. As I move toward retirement I am very aware that I have to keep working so I chose to do things which will meet my modest financial needs and also my love of supporting people in their life journey. Woven into all of this is my love of writing. Trained as a Journalist, and having worked in the field as a freelance news writer for many years, I have a great love for writing. This blog is a new beginning for me. As I hone my skills and begin to form a daily discipline of writing I hope it will lead to more writing in the future.
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1 Response to Opportunities Take Strange Turns – Singing on the Train

  1. Randal Oulton says:

    What a great life skill to have, and, ’tis the season, it being spring and all…. You may wish to considering posting it in the various Facebook buy / sell / service groups for Port Dover, Port Rowan, etc, so people can easily find you….

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