Often there is a war going on within me and it could be for any variety of reasons. Sometimes it is about difficult relationships or tough decisions or some days, like today, it is just about having too much on my plate and having to chose between anxiety or peace.
This morning I spent hours rushing. I had a host of things to do and still have a bunch more on my plate but I’m learning to take the time to settle and meditate no matter how rushed I am. (Not an easy lesson.) That time of meditation end up making the rest of the day more productive so it’s worth it but it’s hard to remember that when my list is looming large.
Today as I settled into the guided meditation which was next on my list I tried and tried to settle down the turmoil inside and often got way off track from concentrating on my breathing. I was tempted to berate myself but the narrator kept reminding me to let it go without judgement. Judgement of ourselves can be so harsh but I kept opting for peace and that deep silent place even though I only got there for a few seconds.
At the end she told this story. Perhaps, like me, you need to hear it today as well. I hope you will allow yourself to feed the peace within.
The Story of Two Wolves
An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. “A fight is going on inside me,” he said to the boy.
“It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil – he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.” He continued, “The other is good – he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you – and inside every other person, too.”
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?”
The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed.”